BEAUTIFUL MYSTERIES!

Hello My Dear Friend, Hope everything is going well for you. If u arent, dont worry i see you dear. 🤗 I've been trying to write.. mostly I end up too tired and cant write. I actually need a hug right now. Well yeah, I know, what you're thinking?  What Sherin? Why so hate? No hate dear readers.... Its that the chaos is a bit too much sometimes, I can't even hear or decide whether Im breathing or not.. 😂 The endless rants of hunger, and complaints... Is sometimes a bit savage 😒 I am the problem solver/ peacemaker aka referee/coach/ mom dont forget that 😆 But All is Good ! My dear readers ever since, after last years unbearable incident! And yeah, im not complaining 😂 I know Im blessed! ThankGod! This year was very subtle  and less traumatic. Even though sometimes there was times im famished, anxiety strikes me....bad!  But, by God's grace, everything is happening well. I'm humbled how my boys have grown up so fast. Today I was so emotional, I was wat...

So its Valentine's Day! I dont know what to write?! A decade ago I fantasise Flowers, card or Mysterious gifts! But now that Im older I think I was just wasting my time expecting, dreaming (WTH) 😂 and excitement 🥰. I mean why do we need our loved ones to wish us ? If You, yourself is A bouquet of Roses 🌹 Yes my dears, you are much Valuable!!!! Do you want someone to invest in you, getting you those presents, pricing you, tagging you, and labelling you?! No dear, you are much worthy than that! What we need we can achieve... As Miley Cyrus once said, We can buy ourselves some flowers, or buy that bag or that car,  we always wanted. Im not saying this Coz I hate these... I had done waiting for these material things. What We shall seek is peace' of mind! Are we forgiving ourselves? Are we being kind to ourselves? Do we 😊 smile when we see our face in the mirror? If not , then you're just lost my dear. Stop criticising yourself. What others treat you do...

Accused to the level of my nothingness I am crushed in like a paper And what could a squashed, crumbled thing do, Filled full of untidy creases and folds? Sometimes I think life's just ended, Oh no it didnot! Im still here... But would anybody miss me?? No never, ever, im sure Im just searching for the day When one could mend me right Where I could find a good steam, Or should I wait longer?! Please dont hurt me anymore Everytime you do , i think its one last time, And yet I realise how fool I am Forgiving forever and ever since. No, I love my soul soo much, I cant let it happen anymore I want myself be healed With a warm big Iron , oh I do Smoothening my wounds Caring for my feelings Listening to every joke I make And Embracing me As What I Am!        

  You don't need a man to raise you, Nor anyone to praise you, 'Coz you should be the one and only, To raise yourself and dignity! Tighten those weakness, not cover it, Embrace it and accept it. You should know nobody lives,  with no setbacks or no weaknesses!!! My life journey has been a bumpy ride , though I always thought I will collide. Face to face ,the future, unknown.  Facing each time with all my strength.  Never should I ever remember , 'Coz whats in the past , has sharpened my thoughts , to know my boundaries , to know my stand,  and I realise nobody can Raise you,  Other than I!!!!!      

When the questions are asked You give me no answers When I wait for you You never show up Yet I keep calling you Breathless Im breathless Where I cant get enough air I try very hard to take ,deep breaths This is choking my neck I am scared One day I can't Take it anymore longer I might suffocate in this vaccum Rude , vulgar and chaos. Not a single word of care, Not a single word of affection, Breathless Im breathless Could You breathe for me Calming my inner self Soothing my throat Feeling the throb stop And slowly and gradually I could ever breathe freely.